The last one!

Today is my youngest childs 15th birthday, how the hell did this happen?  When he was born at 12:26 in the afternoon, it was fairly fast, I was waiting  to get my very first ever epidural, you see  the other were born " natural ",  no numbing for me, so I decided to get the epidural.  When I told my husband to " go get the f___ing nurse, Jack was already crowning his hard head,  it was only 7 or 8 hours in labor,  I just wanted to experience no pain, to be able to talk  and enjoy,  laugh with the nurse and watch TV.
That was not in the cards for me that day, the nurse said  it was too late, I knew that already! I was being split in half by my biggest baby,  then when he came out he had what they called " a true knot " in his cord, they said " we need to document this ", and it had been trials and tribulations since then!
Don't get me wrong, he is awesome, just difficult sometimes, he likes to do things his way, as he grows up we it is getting easier.  He does not like change, he knows everything.
Chapter two comimg soon! 

How to Deal

I have 5 sisters, we range in ages from 59 through 41, we all live fairly close to each other except one who lives in sort of North Jersey.  While growing up as kids most people do not think about losing a sibling  to illness,  unless of course someone was ill as a child or teen.  Our family ran the gamut of cuts, bruises, broken bones, sickness and many other things like most kids.
As we have grown to become the ages of our parents when we thought they were old, can you imagine thinking 49 is OLD!!!!!, it becomes apparent that  disease is rearing its ugly head.
My sister has cancer, it is not the OK type, not that any type is OK,  but it is really bad and has spread to other parts of her body.  Well this really sucks the big one and  how the fuck do we accept this?  There  are many things we can control, believe me, if I can control them I will, I am sort of a controlling person, not wacko, freako control, just a little bit.
You can pray to whomever you want, personally I don't really subscribe to that, not sure if any of it matters,  I think things are going to happen the way that they do.  My point is to deal and cope and love that person how ever you like, be there,  help them out, listen,  wash their clothes, make them laugh, take them to the doctor,  just be available.
One more thing, I DO NOT CHANGE DIAPERS!!!

White Picket Fence Syndrome

This is the beginning of the week of July 17th, it is a Sunday, I always thought the week started on Monday when I was small,  well  probably up until I had
to grow up at 17.  I married for the first time at the wee age of 17 and started a family, I thought I knew everything, I wanted the whole deal, white picket  fence and all.
I believe that  White Picket Fence should be  a clinical category in the New England Journal of Medicine,  it starts when a person becomes delusional about a relationship they are in, for me I was very young and thought I wanted to emulate what I had at home.  I was raised in a great family, great parents, 5 sisters that for the most part got along  very well together, so I met someone who  I could bring into my way of thinking and  talked him into it.  We were doomed from the start, it was in 1979 and most people our age were partying and having fun,  we did the same thing as everyone else, but we had  a baby, bad combination.
Needless to say we only stayed together less than 3 years, had 2 sons who are all growed up and are awesome men.
The point of this rant is to watch your kids, be aware of their relationships, do not allow them to get too involved at an early age and talk to them about life!  My parents did the best that they knew how, with what they had, it was different for them growing up.  The world ws not so active and when they did stuff it was usually wholesome and naive.
I am remarried and just celebrated our 20th anniversary, we have  a son and a daughter,  i do things a little bit differently the second time around, but not much,  I can truly say   I think we have raised great, wonderful kids who are aware of their role on this earth.

No sleep Saturday

Well here we go again, no rest, why on earth is it I cannot sleep, or why am I such a light sleeper? My husband gets up to get a glass of water at 4 am, I sort of  wake up, 15 minutes later he still hasn't come back to sleep,  so the wack job that I am is thinking, " Where did he go?"
I get up and walk to the kitchen,  all is quiet, he is out on the back deck just looking at nothing! We both go back to bed and he starts talking, everytime I close my eyes and possibly find that  bit of sleepiness he asks me another question, not in a whisper but in a real daytime voice.
I used to worry when I was very young that when I had kids I would never wake up for them, my mother said that you will, it is just something you do.  Now it is 7 am, we both had our 2 cups of coffee and he went back to sleep.  I have 2 loads of wash in, going to make chili in the crockpot for supper, get my shower and go to work at 10 and be sweet and wonderful to all the people I have scheduled to paint pottery today!

The Menopause

Today I woke up at 4 am, laid there till almost 5, why am I awake?  I am told when you are approaching" The Menopause", you experience sleeplessness, mood swings, sporadic periods, hot flashes, and all sorts of other ridiculous body changes.
Well, I remember my mother at this time in her life, she would run outside in the middle of winter with her shirt unbuttoned, her neck was red and she was soaking wet, that was a HOT FLASH!  she would argue with my father about nothing, or maybe it was one of his  ideas about something that she was not interested in, he always was thinking about  some sort of thing like, building something that we didn't need.
I understand now!  I am experiencing all the same things as her at almost the same age, and the problem is , I have married a man like my father, always talking about building or changing, or some sort of frustrating something. I am most likely more vocal than my mom, not sure, need to ask my sisters.  My husband and I bicker  almost everyday,  its never  a marriage ending argument, he usually asks, " Are you getting your period? " Amazing how well he knows me.

Potted Plants

I finally went to the garden center and bought annuals for my pots,  I planted and planted, very huge pots, medium pots, and small pots too.
Now none of this would have been possible without the help of my husband Craig, when I told him I was taking out the pansies and replacing them  he said, " No you're not! ".  So, I just started to remove what I didn't want and replace with what I wanted  ( as usual I win! ).Craig went in the back yard and brought so many pots that I hadn't even thought about, then he brought out this small antique  wheelbarrow and made a great display with pots all around it, gotta just love him!

Sunday Morning

Now I don't want to complain, but it was 6 this morning and all I hear are the caretakers of the park next door who will remain anonymous, yelling to each other about dead plants, kids ruining, not enough water, or whatever.
Now I am usually a very early riser ready to tackle the day, well not today, went to bed late, had some Saturday night cheer, my eyes won't open and I don't want to be mad when I get up.
I get out of bed, I look like a zombie and want to try to give a peek behind the blinds so no one can see me and  the talking just stops, now I am awake, time to make the coffee.

Looking for plants

Today I went looking for plants for my giant concrete pots, I took Jack my youngest,  just to torture him. He enjoyed it I think anyway, went to 3  different places to no avail.
I want them to flow over the sides and be very colorful, I have done them every year and they are always beautiful,  it must be my PMS, best not to do anything yet.

Thank God

I finally think that I figured how to get back to the posting page, anyway summer is quickly approaching and I finally feel like being in the garden, just bought a stone owl that I love.
When I figure out how to upload pics I will post pics of the garden.

Saturday's Storm

Yesterday we had a  most amazing rainy day, thank God we live where we live, could not even imagine what the rest of the country had to go through.
 I am from the east coast and live in a no flood, tornado, hurricane, or really weather disaster area.  Every place my husband decides he may want to move has had terrible natural disasters, hmm, guess I am right again!

Tuesday

You know when you have to get up in the morning and your eyes won't open, everytime you close your eyes you go back into a deep sleep that is soooo cozy!  Oh yeah, and I also resume the dream that I was having.

I hate kids!

Why should I have to wake up my college age child?  I went in 3 times at 15 minute intervals, now it is 8am and she screamed, " I'm not going to school today!!!!"
I really don't care, you paid for the classes, go ahead and waste your money!

 

Saturday

Saturday, it used to be cartoon day when I was a kid, it was channel 3, 6, or 10. The best cartoons were on, usually only till noon, then at 1 in the afternoon Bandstand came on and later it was Soul Train!!!!

Rainy Thursday

Today is a rainy Thursday, it is either rainy or cold on my day off. I think I get it, it happens because direct tv wants me to sit on my couch all day and eat and watch movies or reality television.

Friday night

Just worked a long ass night, then went to the diner with my sisters, had coffee and cheesecake at midnight. Waiting for jack to call for a ride home.

Friday the 18th

Today is going to be a nice warm day in New Jersey, I am going to wash and hang my quilt and blanket on the line to dry. Work tonight at All Fired Up! in Collingswood, PJ's, Painting and Pizza  and lots more reservations.

The St. Patricks Day Dinner

Well I think it was not very good, I really do not like corned beef, I believe  I failed at my dinner.

thursday evening

Going out with my sister Toni, maybe we will go an Irish Pub and drink stout that tastes terrible. But I think we will go shopping instead.

St. Patricks Day

Well we are not Irish, we are Italian but always felt that there must be some Irish somewhere. I just made corned beef and cabbage for the first time, it called for potatoes but I really didn't have enough of them, I actually followed all the directions, something I never do.
Will post later with results.

Just joining the gang!!!

I think this is a way to avoid doing the things that have to be done.  It is 7 am, been up for an hour, had my coffee, created a blog, checked my facebook and twitter, now the wash.